By Muhammad Haji
I pondered in myself in front of the mirror and I saw that I had grown up. My feature has been changed, and everything has become different from what it was in the past. I asked myself what has really changed! I pondered at myself, and I saw that I had changed from inside completely.
Those events that I went through the childhood, in the period of adolescence, now in the period of building a future, events made me and events have affected the internal high impact.
When I was young, I was wondering if I’d be successful when I grow up! This question hesitates inside me too much! Sometimes, my answers were drifting towards a positive way! Yes, I’d be a successful person! The one who is proud of his parents!, of himself, his family and everyone around him!
In some cases, my answers were negative characters! I was afraid to fall into problems, in the labyrinths, and in the things that I cannot find any solution! But in spite of all these negative, overwhelmed by the positive! I tried as much as possible to make myself a full of the desire for success and access to the best!
I did not imagine for a moment that I’m going to become the second place! I was looking and dreamed of first place! I will not accept competition! Who wants to grab the lead, grab it with all his strength, or the least give a try!
So this was my ambitions, and the positives! The more advanced in my age and a new phase I discovered that the positive, which had controlled me, gradually became less! I started looking for reasons! I may find a solution to the problem! I looked at all places!
I read all in these domain books! I never leave a place and a thing that I have not been looking for it! After all these attempts, I realised that I did not think twice about it, and when I dreamed, my dreams were far from realistic and logical!
I was in the failure stage, fallen stage, collapsed stage and the stage of defeat, yes defeatism! I was about to surrender, and give up for everything! I began reviewing the decisions taken by myself, and began by listing all the decisions, all the dreams and ambitions that I had intend to reach them.
I forget that failure is the first ranking in the ranks of achieving success! I forget that failure is the first step to reach the goals of success. And I forget that in order to achieve that, I should not regret for making mistake to learn from the experience! And then simply I realised that the mistakes are just the beginning of each powerful attempt. Yes, I learned from my mistakes.***